♥ Disappointed? I guess so. (Friday, August 8, 2008 / 9:33 PM)
♥ yesterday's history,
tomorrow's a mystery
and today's a gift, thats
why its called 'THE PRESENT'.
I guess, it feels kind of wrong right from the start. I thought everything would work out fine, perfectly. But yet I am feeling like crap now. But then again, its all my own doings. Who can I freaking blame? I reap what I sow. I reaping this cause I sowed it brainless-ly. It is only now that I feel it/unhappythings/everything smacked right into my face. Sound so emotional and WRONG, so not daphne. But hey, everyone has days like that, aint it so?
Its like, ewww. I dont know how to describe the kind of feeling I am having right now despite having rather wonderful vocabulary 'embossed' in me. Disappointed. Sad. Frustrated. Pissed-off. Afraid. Frightened. Lost. Whatever. Not like ____ knows? WHATEVER.
YAOZHONG SCOLDED ME TODAY. :C
Anyway, I was supposed to wake up at like 6.30 today cause I am meeting Shermaine at 8am in school. Which is like damn fcking early. Whatsmore? Daddy isnt here to drive me to school. He's BUSY. And guess what time i woke up? 7.32am. Amazing, aint it? And its like, I woke up only because my mum came to ask me what time I need to get to school. Then i check my phone. SHOCKED like shit. I still lazed in bed for like another 3 minutes before getting up to bathe. Left the house at close to 8.50. I cabbed to school. I know its a waste of money. Its peak hour somemore. So that was like $8.65 gone. I didnt want to make Shermaine wait for long you see?
Did the freaking DBMS from scratch. Two hours went past unknowingly with warm barley for me, and grassjelly for shermaine. Went for Stats and then back to do DBMS. Skipped lunch cause of some stupid stuff me and Shermaine didnt accomplish. Then to PACC lecture. Stayed for more PACC, then eerie stories by Christina Chua. She's a REALLYREALLY nice teacher. :D Well, I remembered what Shermaine/someone else said: 'All the nicenice teacher teach us for year long modules one hor.' Thats like, so bad. But undeniably, the truth. JAYA, CHRISTINACHUA, there goes.
DBMS-ed after school AGAIN. and Zilin asked a random question while we were DBMS-ing. 'Today got fireworks anot uh?' And Canaan was like 'If today have, then I would not be a Singaporean.' And then when ben was trying to talk to me and Shermaine, the CD thing kept coming out from the CPU. Thats like SUPERRR hilarious can.
Abrupt ending. But BYE.
moodless, moody, gloomy, whatever you call that. I dont care.
LOTSOFLOVE,
DAPHNETMY ♥.
edited.
I dont know why people can cling onto something so tightly, And want something ___ back so badly. I just feel bad for them simply just thinking about it. Thoughts should be sorted out. LIKE FAST/IMMEDIATELY. If its not solved, it will/can get very draggy. It will get, very timeconsuming, very straining, mentally too. Decisions are all made/decided by us. The way things turn out is all due to our decisons. Selfish-ness, is not going to exist in daphne anymore. Fyi, t doesnt feel good at all like that. Quit being nice to someone you dont love. Give your attention to the one you really love. Substitution kills.
P/S: im not referring to anyone in particular. Its just,
a general remark/comment or whatever you call that.
Labels: i fcking hate you now.
"The best around might not be the best for you." - DTMY
